I have found a version of me
In a different reality
But how is that as I am me?
But then again is this even me?
I sometimes find me in another place
Sometimes I see myself as blood on white lace
A nuisance that won’t wash away
But then again, is that a reality?

Is this even me? Because I am in doubt
Who am I when I scream and shout?
Usually I try to stay silent
So who am I when I turn violent?
All these thoughts inside my head
Is this what I am good enough to get?
I yell down the drain but I am not heard
My heart and body are so filled with hurt

Have I been here for six hours or nine?
Naked in a bathtub alone with my pain
My voice is long gone as my throat is dead
I have screamed and cried with eyes so red
I am crying but without tears
My eyes have been empty for so many years
I come here to kill my emotions slowly
But then again is this even me?

Sometimes I’m here for multiple days
Without food or company in disarray
Naked and loud, I scream and shout
Hoping this time, it will be my final bout

Coming here is like going to war
And every time I pray to soar
I don’t want to win, I want to die
Saying I want to live would be my greatest lie

So here I sit and scream out my lungs
The doubt inside is consuming me

Is this even me? I have no clue
You could be me and I could be you

I have awoken
How long has it been?
My memory is blurry
And I feel sick within

Nothing has changed
This body’s still not dead
Cold and ill in the bathtub
With severe pain in my head
Is this even me?